Slowly sinking in

I'm doing OK. Truth is I lost her about a week ago, had she been running and "herself" just yesterday this would be so much harder on all of us. As horrifc as the scene was Matt and I and more than anyone Spooky are all so lucky it happened in the time frame it did. Had I taken her straight to the vet when she cried in the car I would have most likely gotten there, picked her up and taken her in the building. I think picking her up at any point after her first cries would have been very painful. Instead of being put to sleep on a cold floor or table in a place she hated, she died in a familiar place on a soft surface and wasn't put in any futher pain. She had alot of miles in that CR-V. Limo will never ever replace Spooky, no one ever will or ever come close, I know this. But 2 years ago when I accepted her in our home I knew Spooky wouldn't be around forever even though she promised me or so I made her promise.... But I knew this day would come and it would be hard as hell and I knew I would want a dog to have, but I didn't want to look for a second dog nor did I want to look for a dog after she had passed. I guess you could say Limo came at the right time. Spooky had a great time playing with her, would chase her down and and grab her by the neck with her 3 teeth. I think what I will miss most of all is Spooky would always put her head on my shoulder when we were stopped at red lights... I feel lucky to have pics of this moment.